Kompleks..

20-12-2012
09.02
9th Fl. Citra Graha Building

Masih hampir sama dengan yang kemarin. Agak kikuk rasanya. Terlebih, di ruang lain, masih ada keinginan yang membuncah. Ini masih pagi loh, Vel, kok rasanya udah macem-macem?

Mungkin, ada sedikit sindiran-sindiran yang terlontar, yang membuatku merasa sedikit lebih lega, karena dengan itu aku tahu perasaannya yang sesungguhnya. Mengenai posisiku sebagai (mungkin) orang ketiga, yang tidak pernah aku suka. Tentang sifatku yang terlalu terbuka itu, sebenarnya aku hanya ingin membantu. Ya sudahlah, bedanya sekarang, aku tidak lagi bisa. Aku membatasi diriku untuk mengucap sesuatu. Aku tidak lagi bisa sepenuhnya mendengar keluh kesahmu, dan mungkin pula denganmu. Disini, benar katamu, aku sepertinya hampir merasa jenuh. Jenuh dengan progress yang sangat lamban ini. Bosan, karena nampaknya aku tidak mau menunggu lebih lama lagi. 

Ada yang mau bantu aku? :p





Sometimes, it hurts because it's mattered

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This is!

Picture perfect memories scattered all around the floor.
Reaching for the phone 'cause I can't fight it anymore.
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind?
For me it happens all the time.

It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I NEED YOU NOW.
Said I wouldn't call but I've lost all control and I NEED YOU NOW.
And I don't know how I can do without.

I JUST NEED YOU NOW.

Another shot of whiskey, can't stop looking at the door.
Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before.

And I wonder if I ever cross your mind?

                      For me it happens all the time.

It's a quarter after one, I'm a little drunk and I NEED YOU NOW.
Said I wouldn't call but I've lost all control and I NEED YOU NOW.
And I don't know how I can do without.

I JUST NEED YOU NOW.

Yes I'd rather hurt than feel nothing at all.

It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I NEED YOU NOW.
And I said I wouldn't call but I'm a little drunk and I NEED YOU NOW.
Well I don't know how I can do without.
I JUST NEED YOU NOW
I JUST NEED YOU NOW.
OH BABY I NEED YOU NOW.

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with you, everything's fine! :)

I am happy.
Yes. I am so happy.
Yesterday. Today. Tomorrow.
I am gonna be happy.
Why?
Why not?
Cause with you, everything is fine! :)


*uuu.. kaya abege deh! hha!

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Letter to you!

Aku ingin mencintai seseorang seperti dirimu
yang bisa membuatku seperti debaran sayap merpati
menggeletar gemetar bagai gelisah bekukan semesta di sekitar
saat ku tatap wajahmu

Aku ingin mencintai seseorang seperti dirimu
yang bisa membuatku merasakan seperti duduk di pinggir laut
dengan kaki terjuntai di dalam dingin air yang sejuk
saat kuselami senyummu

Aku ingin mencintai seseorang seperti dirimu
yang bisa membuatku seperti berdiri di luas tanahnya yang lapang
dengan bunga mekar dimana-mana dan angin tebarkan wewangian beraneka
saat kudengar celoteh riangmu




(ini adalah puisi yang diberikannya. dan saat baca ini, ih waw, suddenly i fly. sungguh lebay!)

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hidden conversation

 this ia a conversation between Joe and his  bestfriend, Tyna..


 Joe : I broke up with her
Tyna : What happened?
Joe: She's just too much for me
Tyna : How do you say that? What did she do?
Joe : Well. For one, she only cared about her appearance. Always had to look good. Always took forever to get dressed. So inscure!
Tyna : So you broke her heart because she wanted to keep your eyes locked on her? She wanted you to see that you have the prettiest girl under your sleeve and not  think otherwise? I see
Joe : Oh. Well. She'd often call me or text me asking where i am, who i'm with. Telling not to smoke, not to drink. She's so clingy!
Tyna : So you broke her heart because she cares about your well being? Because she cares about you a lot? And her greatest fear is losing you. Ok, I see.
Joe : But.. Uuhhmm.. She'd always cry when i say something slighty mean. She can't handle anything. She such a crybaby!
Tyna : So you broke her heart because she has feelings? And because she just wanted to hear you say you love her?
Joe : I.. Well! You know? She'd get jealous easily. I could barely talk to other girls! She's so annoying. I had to hide it from her so she wouldn't bitch about it.
Tyna : So you broke her heart because she just wanted you to commit to her? She tought you were faithful, but you lied out so she could find out later and hurted even more? She just wanted the guy she loves the most to love only her. Now, i see.
Joe : Welll.. she..
Tyna : You broke up with her because she's good for you? She just wanted the best for you? She's broken now because you were selfish. Are you proud?
Joe : I broke her heart, because i couldn't see what was happening. What happened to me?
Tyna : You lost the girl who loved you like no one else could. You see? You didn't want her when all she ever wanted was you. THAT'S what happened.




(nonjok bener. kalo si botak bilang, nendaaan puuooll)

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(psst.. rahasia)

emm...

cuma mau bilang kalo saya udah punya, emm... pacar!

pssst. tapi jangan bilang-bilang, soalnya gitu deh, backstreet!

oke. :)

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